Christmas 2013

Yes. It's that time of the year again-one of my favorites: Christmas!

Where did all the days go? It seems only yesterday when it was only January '13 and I was still trying to get used to it and now it's December and another year is ending. I swear, time sure does fly fast!

Here's a Christmas song for this year: Santa Baby by Taylor Swift

And just like last year, I'm gonna post my wishlist for this Christmas. I hope I get to have them all.

1. A black blazer. I could really use one for different occasions depending on how it's styled. I don't have one yet and I'm sure it'll come in handy someday. 

2. A sweater. It's December, a.k.a. sweater weather. We don't really have snow here but who cares? I want one and it gets cold from time to time that a sweater will surely keep me warm.

3. Anna and the French Kiss. This has been in my booklist for a long time now. I want to read it already! The same goes for...

4. ...The Book Thief. Strange enough, bookstores here don't seem to have an available copy of it. I hope when I next visit a bookstore, they'll have one.

5. Denim skirt. I just have this feeling that I'm gonna need one from now on.

Merry Christmas everyone! 

Query 2

What's the best advice you'd give to yourself today?

The best advice I can probably give to myself today would be to start really living life. All I've done so far is stick to the rules because it's safe and comfortable. I simply exist in this world, living each day with the mindset of just making it through the day unscathed. It's time I start making something out of life even if it means breaking a few rules because that's where the fun usually is. Life ain't fun without a few complications and troubles. 

Free as a Bird

Too often the thought that I'm free to do anything crosses my mind. There are no chains weighing me down to go places. There are no walls stopping me from doing things. The truth is the only thing standing between me and what I want to do is myself. It's so cliche, I know, but it's the truth.

I always find excuses as to why I can't do it yet. I console myself by thinking that someday in the near future, I'll be able to do just that because by then I'll have the resources I'll need. But who am I kidding? What does the future hold for me if I don't do anything now? I'll never grow and learn if I don't do something. I'm just wasting time.

You see, I envision myself trying out new things. Like I would try out yoga or baking or jogging or going on road trips! But I seem to always put them off for later. And my personality and attitude aren't really helping me out to achieve these things. I'm the shy type and kind of a masochist in a way. I'd just about tolerate anything if I can help it. I let opportunities pass me by.

So every once in a while, the thought that I am free do to anything crosses my mind and I'm struck by how very true it is. I mean I could do just about anything if I acted on it. The problem was I'd rather have things be handed to me than me going for them. Sad truth. I keep on wishing and wishing that I'll change but it wouldn't matter in the least if I don't try on acting on it. But I could always wish for a miracle.

Query 1

My mind has become idle. It's too lazy to think. In turn, I've become so complacent about everything. I don't care for anything anymore and I have not been productive. I haven't let myself go through anything troublesome just to accomplish something. I let things run its course or I rely on others to do things for me. And I know this is wrong. That's why I've come up with an idea and bought a Query? (cards with thought provoking questions) from Papemelroti.

I never think outside the box. I always stay on the familiar and safe side. So with this game, I hope I can stimulate my brain to think more and I'd be able to come up with fun and out-of-this-world answers. Here goes Query 1: A mad scientist is going to switch all your body parts except one, which body part will you choose to keep?

I'd like to keep my legs to where it already is because I'd like to go to places. My greatest dream in life is to travel the world and I'd like to do that with my legs letting me walk around. 

Take that Jump

I remember this one time when my family and I went to a waterfall place. It was a beautiful place. There were other people there so it was kind of crowded. There was also this big rock by the river. Some were standing on it, waiting for there turn to jump into the water. I saw this boy jumped to the water without any hesitation. Then he went for the rock again.

I, on the other hand, was too scared to try (Need I say that some were younger than me?). But I found myself standing on it. I guess I was curious enough to try but I stayed there for a long time. I couldn't jump. I just stood there staring at the water thinking of a million things that could go wrong. I mean, what if the water was not deep enough and I got hurt? What if I drown? So many "What if?" ran in my mind. I was held up by fear. Anyway, I stood there for a long time. People were jumping and coming back for more while I just stood there.

I finally gathered the courage to do it. I moved to the edge, took a deep breath, and then took that jump. I let out a small scream and shut my eyes tight. I felt great. I finally did it. I conquered my fear. And all the worries were for nothing. I wanted to do it again. But when I resurfaced, I heard my parents calling it was time to go. When I knew I had to go, I felt confused. Should I be happy that I managed to conquer it? That I was able to overcome something like that? Or should I feel regret? Regret because it took me so long to just do it. Had I just taken that jump without any worrying, would I be doing it several times over by then?

All Skin

The kind of environment we are in affects our appearance. Okay, maybe it's general knowledge that a place will have an effect on people's appearance but I can't seem to get over that fact. I mean Americans have a different skin type from the Koreans and they are different from the Filipinos, too. I can't help but notice how people of a certain descent moves to live in another country and when they come for a visit in their home country, they look different. You'd actually know they weren't from around there. And then we also have people living in the same country but have different kinds of appearances. There would be people who have dark, dirty skin I see in a lot of street people. There are also people who looks a certain look. And there are these people who look like they came from somewhere else because they seem to have the perfect look like the ones you'd see in movies. They have the perfect skin.

I don't know. Maybe it's because of social status; not only because of the genes. Like the kind of upbringing one had, the food one eats and the clothes one can afford have something to do with how one looks. Or maybe it's all about taking good care of one's health and having the right confidence. I don't know if what I'm writing makes sense but I seem to notice that some people have this look that I wish I could achieve. It's all in the skin really. As I'd like to put it: "Anybody with good skin can look good in anything."

Little Women

"I am fond of luxury."

"There are many Beths in the world, shy and quiet, sitting in corners till needed, and living for others so cheerfully, that no one sees the sacrifices till the little cricket on the hearth stops chirping and the sweet, sunshiny presence vanishes, leaving silence and shadow behind."

"...for conceit spoils the finest genius."

"...the great charm of all power is modesty."

"You won't show the soft side of you character; and if a fellow gets a look at it by accident, and can't help showing that he likes it, you treat him as Mrs. Grummidge did her sweetheart; throw cold water over him, and get so thorny no one dares touch or look at you."

"I wish it was as easy for me to do the little things to please people, as it is for you. I think of them, but it takes too much time to do them; so I wait for a chance to confer a big favor, and let the small ones slip; but they tell best in the end, I guess."

"I suppose it's natural to some people to please without trying, and others to always say and do the wrong thing in the wrong place."

" They did feel it, yet neither spoke of it; for often between ourselves and those nearest and dearest to us there exists a reserve which it is very hard to overcome."

"She recognized the beauty of her sister's life- uneventful, unambitious, yet full of the genuine virtues... The self-forgetfulness that makes the humblest on earth remembered soonest in heaven."

"Some people seemed to get all sunshine, and some all shadow."

Evolution of Time

I sometimes wonder what will happen in the future. I mean times are changing. We're slowly leaving a time when things were simpler to a time where technology dominates and the ways of people are changing. People forget the ways of the past and new practices and beliefs are emerging. I know it has always been this way since the dawn of time. There is always going to be these transitions. I've only read it in books how life before were so different. So for me, this time it feels different because I'm a part of it now. I'm actually living and going through these changes. And I'm scared. Scared because I don't think I'm ready to face this new world yet. Scared because values of the past are slowly being forgotten and I don't like how children of this generation are becoming. Scared because I like the old times just fine and then suddenly these new changes come along that I don't fully welcome.

Here are some pictures I googled showing the evolution of things:

We don't know for sure what the future will be like but it is up to us people to decide what we want it to be. Because it is in our hands that we can mold the world however we want it to be. We have that power. I just hope people don't forget the past and will remain to uphold the values of the previous eras. Not to get lost on all the new things.

My Turf

Sometimes, I can't get this image of me sitting in a comfortable couch drinking hot chocolate all alone in the living room, out of my mind. It just pops up out of nowhere and it makes me wish I had a place of my own. I know I've said that I don't think I'm ready to live on my own yet but I want the feeling of comfort I constantly imagine if I had my own place.

I'm the sort of person who wants to start things on a clean slate. If a house is in a bad condition, like leaking pipes and holes in walls, the only solution I can think of is renovating the whole house. I wouldn't call a plumber to fix the pipes or a carpenter to fix the walls. I'd immediately want the whole thing being done over again. Now, this kind of thinking is not easy because it's gonna need a lot of money and time, something I don't really have. I guess I'm just OC that way. So I think getting a place for myself would be a swell idea! Not only do I get to choose where I'm staying but I also get to pick items I'm going to put in there. I can fill it with stuff I like and I can do whatever I want because it's MINE!

I can just imagine all the things I will do there. I can walk barefoot anywhere since my place is going to be clean. Or I can dance to my heart's content without any fear of anyone seeing me. Or I can walk around in my underwear. Or I can have movie nights and cry freely when the movies are oh-so-heartbreaking. Or I can bake cupcakes and cakes and make a mess of my kitchen. Or I can take long, hot showers. Or I can leave things in places knowing that when I get home, they'll still be there. Or I can have these DIY projects for my place. Or I can do nothing but watch movies all day long while eating potato chips. The freedom I get to have with having something I call my own.

Maybe part of the reason I'm writing this is because I'm not really happy with where I'm staying. I mean I'm grateful I get to have a shelter and all but there's just these certain things that prevent me from feeling that total comfort I've imagined in my head. In the meantime, I'll just have to make the best at what I have (something I'm not good at actually) seeing that it's a far fetch dream.

Selflessness and Genuineness

It always amazes me how I can never forget that certain event that happened years ago. I was around 8 years old and was in school. I don't remember all the details but I had this classmate who was crying because he had no snack. I think his food fell on the floor or he lost his money, I can't remember. And I remember going to the canteen, buying a cupcake and giving it to him. Now, the thing with memories sometimes is that they're not that reliable so I'm not 100% sure that that's exactly what happened. Maybe what really happened was that I was the reason his food fell and out of guilty conscience bought him a cupcake to compensate. But everytime that memory flash out of nowhere, I am astonished at how I did not hesitate at all to buy him something even if it meant me not eating because I spent my money for him. The mere act of genuine concern is what moves me. I don't think I do that now, helping others without expecting anything in return. The opportunity never presented itself or maybe I chose to ignore it. I think it's hard to find many people doing things for others out of genuine concern but I know they still exist. It's just that we don't notice them. 

Food for the Brain 7

Some people seem to have things easy for them while others seem to be struggling just to make it at the end of each day. Others seem to find it easy pleasing people, saying and doing the right things. They need not worry about making a great impression because it comes naturally to them. I wish I was that kind of person. I wish I could be confident. That's why I find it hard to do things like pleasing people even in little ways because I just don't think I have a talent for it. It's hard for me. I tell myself that I'll repay that person for the good things he/she has done to me in a big way, thinking that by doing so I have repaid that person that equates to what he/she has done for me. But the problem with that kind of thinking is that a long time may have passed before you could actually return the favor. And it might be too late.

The only thing I can advice anyone is to be themselves. Don't try too hard to make a good impression or to please others. If they like you for you, then that's the greatest compliment you can get. Like what they say, better to be hated for who you are than to be loved for what you are not.

Little Lessons in Life

We can't have everything.

I have to accept the fact that I can't have it all. I have to learn to accept things the way they are and try to be contented with them. I shouldn't wish for something that's not there or wish for something just because another person has it. And I can't keep comparing what I have to what other people have. It'll only make me sad because there's always going to be something that they have that I don't. The point here is that I should accept things and be happy with them. How I wish it could be easily done!

There is still something good in this world. 

No matter how much life seems to be oh so crappy, there's still something good to look forward to. Things may not be going as planned. Everyone and everything may seem utterly stupid. But something good will eventually come. Or maybe I just have to take a second and look around me to see it. It comes in all sizes, be it the little things or the big ones. I just have to remember that.

Don't be afraid of what people will think of you.

Everytime I come across this, I tell myself that I should do that but it's a hard thing to do. I can't help not worry about what the others think of me. I want them to like me. I want them to think that I am good enough. I want them to think I'm cool. So I do all these things just for them to like me even if it means pretending to be someone I'm not. I know I only end up limiting myself. Limiting myself because I don't allow myself to do something else for fear that they might think it's not 'cool'.

It's time I do what I want. Be who I am. I have to stop pretending. I have to stop living a life full of lies and pretensions. It's time to be real. What does it matter if I do something not cool? It's my life. I can do anything I like because in the end I only have myself to answer. I want that when I look back, I'll have no regrets because I did what I wanted to do.

There is no such thing as the right time.

See here.

Everyday is an opportunity to do things. The idea that I can do things NOW sometimes crosses my mind out of the blue and I'm struck by the realization that yes, I can bake some cookies now or I can go out and take a walk now. But what stops me from doing these things is laziness. I tell myself that I have to wait for the right time because doing them immediately seems wrong. I think that it has to take time til I can feel that it's the right time. But guess what? That feeling never comes. I just fooled myself. I missed my chance and when I'll look back on my life, I'm gonna realize that I missed a lot because I waited to do things.

Childhood Shows

During my childhood days, the television was my source of entertainment at home. The internet and Iphone and Ipad didn't exist yet at that time. I remember watching a lot of animes and cartoons back then. I think shows of my time were definitely a lot better compared to today. Although people always say their generation is better than the others, who can say?

Posting some of the shows I watched.

Ultra Maniac; Angelic Layer; Rayearth Magic Knight; Cardcaptor
Sakura; Fushigi Yuugi; Doraemon

Captain Planet; Popeye; Dragon Ball; Detective
Conan; Hunter x Hunter; Beyblade; Get Backers; 
Slam Dunk; Yugi Oh

Pokemon; Ed, Edd n Eddy; Scooby Doo; Fillmore; Mr. Bean; Recess

Make Way for Noddy; Madeline; PB&J Otter; Tiny Planets; Baby
Looney Tunes Show; Kids Next Door; Kim Possible; Lilo and Stitch;
Totally Spies

*insert* Courage The Cowardly Dog and The Mask

Flame of Recca; Ranma 1/2; Mirmo de Pon; Yu Yu Hakusho; Art
Attack; Blue's Clues

The Perks of Being a Wallflower

"Sometimes people use thought to not participate in life."

"We accept the love we think we deserve."

"I just wanted someone to tell me the truth."

"You're a freak, you know that? You've always been a freak. Everyone says so. They always have."

"I feel infinite."

"You see things. You keep quiet about them. And you understand."

"And in that moment, I swear we were infinite."

"I am very interested and fascinated by how everyone loves each other, but no one really likes each other."

"People who try to control situations all the time are afraid that if they don't, nothing will work out the way they want."

Must Watch Movies

I can't deny the fact that the world is ever changing. It does not take the time to pause, but trudge on in its steady pace waiting for nobody. We are at a time where technology dominates and maybe in the near future, people will be riding in flying cars and living on the moon just like in movies. We are slowly leaving our old ways and adapting to new ones. Personally, I find this change hard to accept. If only I could, I'd have things the way they were but seeing that I can't do much I'll just have to deal with it.

I grew up watching movies that are different from movies of today. I know there are many good movies now but I think everyone should watch some of the movies of the past. They were great. They showed us a life that was simple.

1. Matilda
"This is a story of a wonderful little girl, who happens to be a genius, and her wonderful teacher vs. the worst parents ever and the worst school principal imaginable."

I liked Matlilda when I first watched it. She loves to read books and has telekinesis. I think every children should watch it or else they'd be missing a part of their childhood. This movie is also great for adults, too.

2. Eloise at the Plaza 

"Eloise is a fun-loving six-year-old girl with a knack for finding adventure every place she looks." Eloise portrays a child full of mischievous plans and it's quite fun watching her go through day by day full of adventure. Makes us wanna go back to being a child.

3. Ever After
This is a classic Cinderella story. What I loved about this movie that made me liked it more than the other Cinderella movies is that it happened in a Renaissance era. I have an affinity for past eras like in Jane Austen's time. I never get tired of watching it over and over again.

4. Music and Lyrics
"A washed up singer is given a couple of days to compose a chart-topping hit for an aspiring teen sensation. Though he's never written a decent lyric in his life, he sparks with an offbeat younger woman with a flair for words."

This movie never gets old for me. And the song, too.

5. Aquamarine
"Two teenage girls discover a mermaid in their club's swimming pool."

This movie is about friendship, romance, magic, and separation. Makes me nostalgic.

6. The Princess Diaries
Mia Thermopolis finds out that she is the heir apparent to the throne of Genovia. The road to being a princess was never easy. But one of the things this movie teaches us is that anyone can be a princess.

Three Things

If I ever get to have my own house, there are three things you would see: a library, a kitchen, and a swimming pool.

What's a house without a library? I believe every household should have it because life would be intolerably boring without books. With books it is paradise. I'd like to fill my bookshelves with so many books and then I'd be the happiest girl in the world! I'd make sure to have a room just for my books and have a big chair by the window as my reading corner.

And even though I'm an organized person and hate to see a messy room, I'd gladly have this kind of mess. I consider piled up books on floor as art, not a mess. Tis a wonderful sight to behold!

 I know every house already has a kitchen. I just like to emphasize that I really want to have a kitchen. I don't really know how to cook or bake but I keep thinking that if I have my own kitchen, I can experiment. I don't have to worry about making a mess or breaking any stuff. Heck, it's my kitchen and I can do anything with it. At least that's what I tell myself. I'd like to have a bright and cute kitchen so that I'd be tempted to be there and do something, and not neglect it.

 I don't know how to swim so why would I want to have a pool? Come on! You need not know how to swim to have a pool...right? No, really, the reason why I want to have it is to learn how to swim. I can hire a personal trainer to help me. :) And when I finally know how to swim, I can have that as my exercise. I read somewhere long ago that swimming as a form of exercise has so many benefits and that's the real reason I want to have my own pool. When I'll be too lazy to go out, I can stay at home and use the pool.

These are the essentials for me if I ever have my own place.

Food for the Brain 6

In my last days of Junior year and throughout my Senior year I became interested in Mills and Boon books. I don't read the modern Mills and Boon. I'm referring to the old ones. It's quite a good thing our school library had them. I enjoyed reading the different love stories and I loved how I was introduced into an earlier era of simple luxuries and technology-less world.

The one above caught my attention while reading one of the books. Isn't that what we all want? To be important? To be wanted? It's what everybody wants I'm sure. Sometimes, we think that we are loved and think of ourselves as someone important and when we find out that we we're not, it's life-shattering and makes us doubt our beliefs. We react in different ways. I guess when we know we are loved even if it's just one person, it'd be enough to face the world again.

Envy

It's one of the cardinal sins you know.

I am envious of many things. I wish I could stop being envious but it's hard. I envy other people's lives who seem to have everything going great for them. I end up wishing that I had a life like their own. Like everyday is an adventure and having the time of your life. Like in movies and books. It's kind of depressing always wanting stuff. I try to remind myself not to compare myself to others but most times I just can't help it. I can't seem to ignore the things they have that I lack. I just can't help noticing them.

There's a girl I know and envy who will be known as Jessica. I graduated as valedictorian when I was in 6th grade. Of course going into high school there'd be a lot of changes but in my mind I always thought I'd be like the highest in our batch. I dare say I was acknowledged by my teachers as a bright and good student. But all that changed when Jessica transfered to my school. She took away the spotlight as I'd like to think it. I know I sound like a mean girl who got outshined by the new girl but I can't put it any other way. She was beautiful, talented and truly intelligent. She was like a genius you know. And she was near perfection. She had it all-the beauty, the brain and the attitude. The kind of student teachers would admire. She was always the highest and even graduated as valedictorian in high school. I envy her because of those things. Why couldn't I be like her?

There are two other girls whom I envy. "Christy" is my senior and "Kammy" is my junior. What they both have in common is beauty. I'm telling you these girls are so pretty and quite popular. They seemed to look good in anything and can pull off any outfit. I wish I was that pretty. I'm pathetic. I don't know much about them but I do know that Christy is rich but also smart. She's like a young English lady. Elegant and polished. Then there's Kammy. She's the kind of girl everybody loves. She has a bestfriend she've known since I don't know when. They remind me of those friendship movies where you were one lucky gal if you ever meet such a friend. Kammy's also like one of the boys. She hangs out with them doing boy stuff but she ain't a tomboy.

I sound so pathetic telling this but I can't help it. I feel like I'm insignificant whenever I feel their presence. I guess this is what you get when you compare yourself to others. You're bound to find something not pleasant.

Food for the Brain 5

Kids. They are quite fascinating little beings. Truth be told, I'm scared of them. I know they are so cute and all but I'd rather just admire them from afar. I'm scared of what they are going to say. It could be anything. They could bluntly tell or ask you things that will sometimes take you by surprise. We can learn a lot from them, you know. But a sad truth is that some children are in an environment where they can't realize their potential. I mean their minds are corrupted. They've been exposed to too much wrongness that they become these little bastards. That may sound mean but that's what I think. I'm sorry. I wish all children are provided a safe and friendly environment.

Fashion Inspiration

Something I found pretty. Russian vintage is what comes to my mind when I see these.

Unsatisfaction

I want so many things right now. I seem to always want something. I wish I could be contented with what I have but I can't. I'm always unsatisfied. Wanting something that I can't have really sucks because it just makes me sad. Why can't the world just give us what we want? Why can't we have everything for free? Why can't the world be a wish-granting factory? 

I've been taught that life is not about the material things. What matters most in this world can't be seen and it can't be bought. The important things are not easy to acquire. We have to work hard for them. I still can't grasp the whole concept of what's our purpose in this world but can't we at least enjoy the time we have here? I mean, yes, we've heard that we have to make the best at what we have. But I really want to try so many things but I can't afford them. I'm not a resourceful and creative person. I can't look at a certain object and think of the many different things I could make it out to be. What I want to do requires money and time. Two things I don't quite have. 

I want to make a book filled with pictures and quotes. I can't do that yet because I don't have money for printing. I want to bake but I can't because I don't have the money for the ingredients. I want to read books but I'm bombarded with works that are taking up too much of my time. I want to go to Europe but I can't because I don't have money. I don't know if it's possible that a person (assuming he's a regular, not rich, person) can do all that but I can't. I want to but I can't. I seem to have all these excuses. The things I want to do are pretty harmless so why is it so hard to make them attainable?

I'm just so confused. Am I making myself suffer? By wanting so many things, do I make myself disappointed? I'm telling you again, what I want are pretty harmless. Why can't I do them already? Is it because I don't have the determination? Is it because I don't take action? Probably... I'm just confused and disappointed, is all.

A Place of my Own

I have never had a place all to myself, let alone a room of my own. Since I was little, I've been sharing with the family. I never got to experience decorating my room as to what I like. A person who never got to experience having an own room would naturally want to have one just like how a girl with a straight hair would want to have a curly hair or how a a tall person would like to be short. 

So, yes. Growing up, I've longed for a room of my own but I still haven't got it yet. Due to some circumstances, I'm stuck sharing a room with my brother. I'm in a house with my cousins. But you know what I've realized? I realized that I may not be ready to live on my own yet. I dream of having a house all to myself but I think living in it alone would be lonely. I have had moments when all of them are out and I'm the only one in the house. At times I'd feel happy because I got the place all to myself but sometimes I'd feel lonely. I guess I'm just not ready.

Even though I'm not gonna be purchasing any houses or apartments anytime soon, I seem to find myself planning what my place would look like. Right now I'm interested in small apartments. Various kinds of smallness. And when I say small, I mean really small. Just enough to fit in all the things I need. I find small apartments cute. The picture above is my attempt at interior designing, which I'm not good at all. I forgot how I came to this site but I'm glad I did. It lets me plan how a room should look like.

The thing I really want most right now is a room of my own--not a house but a room. I want to have that feeling of having my own property. A place I can call my own. A place where I can dump all my things. A place where I can have my privacy. A safe little haven.

#random

"Rid yourself of the idea that you are working for the teacher or the marks alone. Feel that what you study now will become your own accumulated wealth of knowledge that you yourself will use in the future."

You know, I used to be a very curious person. I wanted to know things, but I am now someone who doesn't really give a crap. I've become a person who thinks that nothing in life should be taken seriously. I wish I can be that curious person again.

Nature and Man

image from tumblr

We all know the world didn't end on December 21, 2012 because we're still here, right? So we go on to think that the world coming to an end is all just crap. That they are not true. That there is no such thing as end of the world. But think again. Maybe there is such a thing as the end of the human race. Some, or many of us, are not aware that our little seemingly harmless actions might be slowly destroying our Mother Earth. Small things like throwing garbage anywhere and driving cars that release carbon dioxide can contribute to the detriment of our planet or major things like illegal logging or dynamite fishing. We pay the price for our own doings. I hear news of storms and floods and earthquakes and I think that it's our planet giving us what we deserve.

We have to start caring for our planet. We have to be responsible and do what's right. I'm not sure if humans will exist in this world forever but I think the least we can do is care for our planet and do everything we can to preserve it.

The only reason I'm writing this post is because lately it has been colder than usual. Normally, I don't get too cold easily but nowadays, it's quite different. Maybe it's just the climate and all but maybe there's another reason behind this. And also because I find the image too good not to post.

Brain's Taking a Dump

I've got a lot of things on my mind right now. I sometimes think that my brain's going to blow up if I start thinking about them again. The thing is this week has been one h*ll of a week for me. There were lots of works to be done and I didn't get as much sleep as I wanted to. I'm so looking forward to the weekend so that I might have a break even if it's just for a day.

So here are a few happenings, realizations, or whatever in my life this week:

• We cannot control everything. Sometimes the best way to go is to let things just happen and see where it takes us. We sometimes feel that we have to be in control of things so that everything will go the way we want it but being a control freak will only cause stress and disappointment, because not all things are meant to be controlled. 

• A friend of mine commented that maybe I was part of some kind of a royal family because of my look and actions and that maybe I was just being silent about it. This actually made me happy. I don't get a lot of compliments like this. Actually, it hit me that I was not the only one who thinks that other people might have a secret identity. I sometimes make up stories about the people around me whose qualities I find unique and interesting.

• If we want to do something, the best time to do it is NOW! We shouldn't wait for the right time and all that bullshark. You see, I have this tendency to think things over. For example, I want to bake but I have all these reasons that prevents me from doing what I want, like not having an oven or not having money to buy the ingredients or not having the time. I tend to tell myself that I'll do it once I have the money and time. This kind of thinking does nothing. Another example is I want to wear something stylish. But you know what I do? I wait for the right time to wear it. The right time that is never gonna come. So that's why we have to do things NOW rather than later. Live in the moment because we never know what will happen next, cliche as it may sound. 

• What if you suddenly find out that your time here on earth is almost up? Like you suddenly find out that you have cancer. It's quite sad, right? Knowing it's almost the end. That there are things you'll never get to do. We have to live life to the fullest so that there will be no regrets. Take every opportunity that comes because we don't know if we'll ever get something like that again. We should live like there's no tomorrow. 

• Some sayings may be cliche and overly used, but there's always a truth in them.

• My mind's cleared up a little after writing this. :)

A New Year

2012 has passed and 2013 has come. It's a whole new year of making new beginnings and a time to make a fresh start. It's amazing how time flies. I can't believe 2012 is over. So much has happened last year and I made it out okay. Survived the many challenges and I'm quite proud of myself for that.

I don't have any particular resolution for this year. I didn't make any because many times I've tried and didn't get to cross out any of the things listed. So I'm just gonna go with the flow and see what this year has in store for me. I hope I can do many things this year. I'd like to accomplish many tasks and try something new once in a while. I hope I have enough courage and hardwork to make my dreams come true and to make this year my best year yet.